Not an addiction...a choice.

I'm a smoker. 

No not cigarettes, i am not ashamed of this flaw of mine. I know the dangers, i have friends that practically scream them at me everyday, but i don't care. 

You why i smoke? because every..i dunno..30 mins or so..that I'm high i have absolutely no problems. I don't think you can fully grasp what that means to me. 

I don't think about school, i don't think about them, i don't think about drama, i don't think about the past or my mistakes, they don't matter at that point, as a matter of fact they don't exist.

I don't know anything else in the world that'd give you that feeling...anything that's accepted that is...so I'll stick with this...for as long as i need it. I have friends that think its an addiction or something close to it..its really not.